The Help Desk - by Jonathan Pechon
My Horrible Attitude
Every one of us has gotten frustrated with this
Let me repeat this for you.
And for myself.
EVERY ONE OF US HAS GOTTEN FRUSTRATED WITH
If you try to deny this fact, you may as well
deny being human.
Let’s look at this more simply, more fully.
Given a certain period of time, there will
undoubtedly be an event of circumstance that will not be
in your favor. You
will mulligan multiple times, yet continue to receive
That bastard of an opponent will get the same
god-draw in game three that he did in game one. Your deck will simply refuse to spit out the cards you
want or need. Whatever.
We all suffer from the same horrible disease:
I have funny beliefs about karma.
I guess I’ve earned what I’m receiving in
play, as my luck has been alternating between simply
poor and absolutely atrocious.
While I enjoy what I can accomplish some of the
time, the things that lay out on the table in front of
me seem to take a twist for the surreal at the most
It simply registers at the time as, “I’m
getting screwed.” And, for some strange reason, I take it incredibly
As if the fact that you just resolved your fourth
Fact or Fiction against me while I’m still
stuck at three lands is something you are actually doing
to me, rather than the simple fate of cards drawn from a
It’s amazing what you will do when you are
don’t know what it is, maybe my sick drive for
perfection in my work, or my honest desire to win, or
simply to accomplish anything, but I’ve found
myself at times in an absolute fury about the things
that happen in this game.
And, like most people who wear their emotions so
close to the surface, I have erupted from time to time,
shouting, or perhaps just shooting my mouth off. At times, for very brief moments, I become someone that I
don’t think I like a whole lot.
Sometimes I wish I had the discipline just to let
it roll off of me, “To let that which does not matter
truly slide.” For
a person like myself, it can be a great trial to
accomplish this. And I haven’t succeeded yet.
Right now, I can rationally say that I do not
believe that winning is that important.
And I will also bet cash money that, the next
time I am on the verge of being crushed, that rage will
bubble back up to the surface.
I wonder what I will do at that moment, if I will
be the better person and player, or if I will continue
to fail the tests?
As I fail these tests, I wonder how it affects
what will come. The
next time I have to flip over the card I need, will it
be there? Or
will I have simply “willed” it to the bottom of my
deck, as some kind of result of my previous actions?
While there is no true correlation between those
two things, how I view karma tends to add those two
a harsh view of one’s self, entirely unfair.
Believe me, I’m learning the lesson.
Again, and again, and again.
So how do I continue playing?
How do I put my hands into fate over and over,
hoping that it will just improve suddenly?
The answer to that is almost funny.
Through all this, all the rage, the bitterness,
the frustration, I am improving myself. I am learning better ways to deal with these kinds of
failures and successes.
If you think that these kinds of circumstances
are only limited to Magic, you have a great deal to
learn in life. When
I can handle losing without the horrible feelings and
display that has started to come afterward for me, I
feel like I will have gained something much more
important to me than a few DCI points.
is enough of that.
On to other things, I would like to say thank you
to everyone who has written me the last couple of weeks;
I am still trying to keep up with email, so please have
a smidge of patience with me.
I appreciate the compliments you guys have sent
my way, and hope that the advice I’ve been able to
offer has been useful.
Please email me any opinions or decks that you
might want help with; I’m still open to anything that
I receive, though please understand if I’m being
critical. I am here to make things work; it’s the job of the
helpdesk, isn’t it?
We’re all still plugging away at IBC right now.
I sincerely don’t think it is a crackable
environment, in the same way that Urza’s Block split
like a walnut struck with a sledgehammer.
It’s simply too open, with enough decks and
quality cards that there will be no deck that stands so
far out from the rest of the pack.
Plus, the quality level of the cards has allowed
for a great deal of flexibility in decks; U/W/B does not
mean you will be seeing exactly the same creatures
and/or spells in every deck.
I wish I had something very insightful for you,
but the only thing I can say is to find a deck with an
acceptable power level, and become as comfortable with
it as possible. That will take you further than blindly copying decks.
Well, it’s time to close up shop for the night.
I’m done downloading the songs I wanted, so
there’s not a whole lot else to do.
Oh, if you are an anime and/or game fan, go take
a gander at www.megatokyo.com,
they are a fantastic webcomic with a lot going for it.
Not to mention that I have ordered one of the
Overclocked T-shirts, for myself, but anyway…